Sitting There Helpless

One of the biggest take away I had from the high school Bible study I attended was that when the leader was telling of how God will break our legs so that we would have to completely rely on him to carry us.  This whole discussion got started when we were debating if God would ever give us more than we can handle. Most of us have been told that he won't give you more than we can handle and our leader was against that idea of thinking. He believe that time and time again, God will give us more than we can handle.

And by the end of the meeting, I agreed with him.

Now that might sound a little intense saying that God will give us more than we can handle, but the fact is that we aren't suppose to be able to handle everything. God make us to rely on him for everything, but we walk in the belief that we can handle everything. We think we are God, but we aren't not even close.

God will give us more than we can handle to remind us that we need to rely on him. Last semester I was the editor of the short film, and for a week straight I work as hard as I could, thinking I could get the whole project done, by myself. The day of the premier came and five in the morning I had the realization that I couldn't get it done. I could not get the video exported in time, and it was my fault if we didn't have anything to show. I broke down in tears, and sat in the fetal position mad at myself for what I couldn't do. I sat on the floor helpless and just cried. Than I was reminded of what my leader said, and realized that I had tried to do this all myself, and not once did I rely on him. I couldn't do it by myself  for I need God.

After I turned to God, he helped me clear my head and figure out what was wrong, and we ended up having something to show that night. It was stressful, but God had to give me more than I can handle just to remind me to turn back to him for all that I am to do. It is never easy when we find ourselves completely broken, but it shows us just how much we need God and how great it is to trust the guy who is in control of everything.

Dear Heavenly Father
Thank you for always being with us, hearing our every need and every tear we shed. Help us to turn the focus off what we can do, and place it on what you can do. You are so much greater than anything that may come up in life, and I trust you and your plan. Amen. 

God's Painting

This past Wednesday was the super blue moon and the lunar eclipse. I was one of the crazy people who was up at 4:30 am to watch the blue moon and then stayed up for the lunar eclipse. I looked at the blue moon, and at the time when I looked it was blocked by clouds, but that didn't mean that the sky still wasn't pretty.




The blue moon created interesting patterns in the sky, and the clouds had this eerie blue effect on them. After a while I went back to my room, and I laid on my couch and just looked out of our big glass window. Even though I couldn't see the moon, it could still appreciate the blue in the clouds in contrast to the yellow of the buildings under the street lamps. It was a beautiful mix of warm and cool colors, and just looking out the window. Everything looked so peacveful, and at the moment everything was okay.




It is amazing on how God can paint the sky to where it is absolutely beautiful, and how it is so much more beautiful than anything we can ever make. God is such a master painter, and he can take anything that is simple and make it beautiful. He can make something that is so ordinary, and make it shine bright and beautiful. It is a great reminder that no matter how ordinary, we may seem, we are worth so much to God, and he can make something beautiful out of all of us.


Dear Heavenly Father
Thank you for the beautiful nights. Thank you for the lovely scenery that we can see, and thank you for continuously working on me to make me more and more beautiful each day.